Friday - It started off really rough as I found out my twitter had been put on a freeze of some sort because my stalker can’t listen to the god damn police and do as they say. Which leaves me to have to deal with that shit this week. Regardless of my frustrations (and realizing that lace front wigs are a fucking bitch to put on) I put onmy cosplay, wig, and make up as one of my friends loaded the car and we were off to Orlando for Holiday Matsuri. We arrived to the hotel, checked in, unloaded the car and then headed to the host hotel. I felt just UTTERLY AMAZING as I stepped onto the convention floor and people immediately googled and goggled over my Elsa Cosplay. All was going well until a small bump in the road that sent me in an utter sheer panic attack which the Con security stepped in to help me. They were informed of the situation by my friends and security then went and talked to the person and told them that if they do something to cause me any problems (stalking, harassment, blocking me from exiting a room with one exit) that he’d be banned from the convention. Afterwards, I started to regain my confidence because I realized one thing, why am I being just as pathetic as him? Why am I curling into a little pathetic scared ball and hiding? Cause my friends are right, that’s showing him that he has the power over me and I have chosen to stand up and stop him from ruining my life. He’s caused enough of my health problems these past months since August and I’m tired of it. I’m tired of being told “oh he’s not doing this or that” and then I listen to my gut and bring someone to keep me safe and I always end up being right that this dude lies through his teeth expecting me to avoid an event from his lies. And just by fucking that, he’s now a liar for making claims he wants to avoid problems. *takes a deep breath* ANYWAYS! Back to the good things. Friday continued to be really amazing until about 6pm where I had sat down and out of nowhere I felt utter pain and my friend ended up fighting the urge to not cut me out of my Elsa cosplay (the top was a fully boned corset) because of how happy, pretty and amazing I felt in the costume. The night ended after a quick change of clothes, a trip to walmart for some extra supplies and painstakingly stitching xmas lights into my secret cosplay.
Saturday - The day started off just utterly AMAZING! The lights on my Holiday Princess Serenity looked….I can’t say Amazing because it looked BETTER then that!!! We realized there was a HUGE design flaw in the dress (plus it was still a smidge too long in the front so I tripped a lot in it, just like Serena XD) where I didn’t take into account the weight of the lights. So as the day went by, I was boob tapped, duct taped, scotch tapped, UPS tapped, sewed, pined and safety pined into this sucker. I got so many compliments on this dress and I felt like more people wanted photos of that dress compared to my Elsa cosplay (which is strange cause the Elsa dress was AMAZINGLY better detailed). After I had lunch and started to walk back to the convention area, I wish I had fucking put money on that the stalker asshole would show up (catching him red handed in a lie) because they were standing in the middle of the main walkway. So I held my head up high and pranced around like my normal dorky ass self and my confidence began to starting flickering back. I played some games of Injustice against my big bro Edwin and actually managed to stay on my toes and not even move spam mashing and my “button smash till something cool happens” method actually worked. Which has given me more reason to want a PS3 cause then I can really practice (and have my big bro coach me) at fighting games and become decent at them. The holiday runway contest came and went, and I felt like a pageant girl again on stage as I walked (and tripped a few times) gracefully down the runway and at that moment I felt like Princess Serenity. I didn’t win anything, however the people that looked like they’d win did win, so I felt happy (plus I love the spirit of competing and showing off my costume rather then winning anyways). After the contest, I went back to the hotel room and changed into my Toys for Tots Ball dress. I felt so sexy and beautiful in my dress. And I think at that moment, I started to forget all the pain, stress, torment, misery, etc that this dickwad had caused me since August. And I’m sure this person saw me in this dress and it was a fairly decent low cut dress too. I got this AMAZING rave outfit + cyber locks and I was told that I look like a raver Kitana from Mortal Combat. I also obtained an AMAZING leather coat that will work spot on perfectly with steampunk sailor moon. The dance was really nice, even had a few guys (and girls) ask me to dance with them cause I didn’t really have anyone to dance with. Lots of people even complimented me on my new hair cut too! After the dance was over, I changed into our Rave outfits. I was SOOOOOO excited to attend my first rave EVER! I played a few games in the game room cause I was so hyper and excited that sitting and waiting in line wasn’t going to go well. That’s when I played some Soul Caliber with Salvatore and I was able to stand on my toes as well. It was amazing too! He even complimented me on how well I was doing. While him and my friend played more games with each other, I was gonna give Halo a shot cause some random person talked me into it. However, I can’t aim for shit and the speed boost thingy didn’t help at all. After the game room closed I went to try to attend the rave, however the music + my chest arthritis didn’t do great together. So after leaving in heartbreak, I went to the bar for a bit and had something to drink and to eat, and went off to the Peppermint Parlor event. THAT WAS THE MOST AMAZING HIGHLIGHT OF MY WEEKEND, NO ONE WILL HAVE ANY IDEA ON HOW HAPPY AND HOW MUCH FUN I HAD!!!! At one point I was no more then 2 feet away from this person, and YOU WANT TO KNOW SOMETHING??? I DIDN’T HAVE A PANIC ATTACK! I DIDN’T GET SCARED! I STILL FELT AMAZING AND STILL HAD A GREAT TIME! Granted I had enough medication in my system that I wasn’t in 100% that much in pain as I had been most of the weekend. After I danced my butt off some more (and had a handful of guys hit on me cause I was in my Rave outfit still, which I did tell them I am married) till I was exhausted and then headed back to hotel and passed out soundly on the bed. My friend Victoria was also staying in the room shared one of the two beds with me (with mom on the other bed) and she felt weird sharing a bed with mom so she was with me. I had warned her that I toss and turn in the middle of the night, and bless her heart, she was confident enough to tell me she could handle it. That is when I woke up in the morning to find out she was with mom. Somehow I managed to kick her off the bed with my tossing and turning, lol.
Sunday - The day started out pretty good (minus a small heart attack over the camera) and we all exchanged gifts at breakfast. Mom was really thrilled to get the Vaccum she has wanted for a while (I put all the little attachments into her gift bag so she had something to unwrap). Edwin LOVED his video game and playstation network credits. I’m assuming Jon liked his Best Buy gift card, he was still asleep when we opened gifts and headed to the convention. Victoria was excited over getting a puzzle and a new cross necklace. My friend Brent, was just a dork over his Michigan santa hat. I was in love with the dragon necklace and earings that Victoria got me. My friend Ashlei was very happy over the Avenger’s soaps and I LOVED the artwork of Lumetta she did for me. And Vincent adored the Rarity gifts I got him. The day was actually rather uneventful, cept for lunch when my appetite FINALLY came back to me and I finished an ENTIRE entree! The costume contest was nice, the people that deserved awards got awards, which always great! My big bro, Edwin had sooooo much fun as Oogie Boogie which made my heart melt with joy! I’m so happy that he had a blast as Oogie! After closing ceremonies mom took us all out to dinner. Dinner went kinda ok, except it ended in me starting to feel pain again from my corset. And since then I’ve been in intense pain, which has lead me to being in the hospital right now.
All in all, I had a major blast at Holiday Matsuri and I really can’t wait till next year!